Hmm. I’m very busy this few days.
My status has change.
From a very free guy to a super busy guy.
Now ask me go out with friend also very hard, what more if got girl.
I will be super duper busy if thats the case lar.
But Nicholas is not gonna let that happen to him.
I shall concentrated on been a CI/Student/Student leader, etc.
Too many for me to list them out.

Friends are still be best.
If a guy and a girl is very close together. “More than friends but lesser than BGR”
I would prefer it that way.
Cause that way neither of the party will get hurt that deep.
Cause they were not into a actual relationship.
Cause that way the friendship can maintain till a long long time.

Omg. Gastric sux.
My gastric is getting worst due to the course.
Cause i had proper meal there.
The now if never eat proper meal then will get very pain.
I’m experiencing it now. It sux.

Okay, I’m being very random for this post.
Till then and there people.

That was the reason i asked you all out.
But nevertheless. Its just that maybe i was too stubborn.
I didn’t had this feeling before.
It was weird, I could say.
Now i got to find sometime with some other people that would want to watch that show with me.
If i can’t, maybe i shall go alone.

And that girl. She was my past.
I should get over it.
Or maybe i have gotten over it but not fully.
I don’t know.
Seeing her having a guy was angry at first.
But now it seems so alright to me.
I don’t know whats wrong with me.
Everything changes after the course.

I shouldn’t have go to her blog.
Seriously i got nothing better to do.
See ler i more heartbreak.
Thats is on her most recent post.
And i swear that the guy is Kevin Lim Jia Qing

Thinking back to the past.
Why must i choose her instead of the other lady??
Maybe i shouldn’t have given up on the other lady.
I really don’t know why i have make that decision.
Maybe its because i gotten too close with her?
Or maybe i was too naive?
I really don’t know.

Hmm, here’s a correction to my older post.
I wasn’t being played by her.
I was being treated as a substitute instead.
Damn this whole thing.
To think that i even treated her that good.
Okay, maybe the good is i claim der.
She might not even think that way.
Maybe i wasn’t treating her as good as how he treated her.
Whatever it is, its the past.
I shouldn’t have ponder over it that much.

Let bygones be bygone.
And yes, thats the phrase that i ever need now.
I’m going to let that done and carry on with my life.
Anyway, i wasn’t really affected by this whole thing.
Lalala. (:

It was the biggest mistake that i’ve ever make throughout my whole life.
A lesson learned with a Great price.
Hmm, Nothing comes free.
So i have pay a huge sum for this lesson.
Wiser up now!!

And she is still living in misery.
Seeing her blog full of relationship.
Lucky i’m not being bothered by that.
Haha.
Mocking!! *Bleauk*

Hmm, Seems like nobody is dropping by my wordpress expect Ngai yun.
Haha.
Lets see whois the next that gonna ask me for the password!!

Here is the conversation
“Hey?! Try to cheer up kkxz <3 Hahas.. anything can solve der. smile more;D

I replied :Why send me this icon”<3″. Don’t you find it pointless to send this type of msg? I can solve my own problem. you don’t have to care that much der. i don’t need that msg from you. Stop acting as if i’m close to you when i’m not at all. i’m bloody fucking piss off. i don’t care if you show to the rest. i believe i have said it umpteen times that its not possible between us. so just give up on that idea. you jolly well know what i meant.

I send you this kind of sms, is to ask you be happy. nothing much at all. so don’t need think that much. plus i also know that you and me can only be buddy nia. or is you think too much? and what did i act?? you piss off? i also piss off. console you then end up gotten scolded by you. wtf. plus not everything is you correct hor.

I replied : You claim that der hor. i shall mark you words. and i don’t see that there is a need to cheer me up for i’m very happy. so stop doing all these fruitless stuff.

Sure, go ahead and mark my word. don’t forget too. oh really?? whatever. i don’t wish to cheer you up liao. if not i get scolding for nothing. oh ya hor. you don’t need people to cheer you up ler sia. so don’t need wor. and when you have time come slack with me and wee thing they all bah.

I replied: ya right, deny all you want, if that makes you feel better. you know your action. no matter how many people you deceive, you can’t deceive yourself.

i never hor~ is i care for a friend, everyone to me a my friend. i never treat you special. plus i is my ownself want come cheer you up hor. i also never said is you ask der. i didn’t act clever at all. every is clever der. you also not very clever. no people is prefect der.

I replied: oh really? i can’t be bothered with you. so i better stop msging you and let you to have more time to deceive yourself.

Its like damn stupid lar.
1st: i never ask her to msg me.
2nd: Her english damn lousy. so many error. What i posted above is edited.
3rd. Since when i say i correct?? ( her 2nd msg)

Her 3rd msg
1st: why ask me not to forget too?? I say i mark her words means that i will remember it
2nd: i was arguing with her. then why must end msg by asking me to go slack with her. She stupid or what?? i won’t go down der lor.

4th msg
1st: Since when i say is i ask her to msg me??
2nd: if she never act clever then why she must msg me to ask me to cheer up when i’m not sad?
3rd: she said that everyone is clever then end off with nobody is prefect.
4th: she don’t wish to cheer me up. you want i also don’t want leh
Totally rubbish. Can be chunk into the rubbish bin.

Can’t stand her!!!!

Only me disturbing the t’cher.
The whole class so diam then left me down there high.
Today disturb the new Java t’cher.
Tell him i go settle problem when the fact is i go down help Xiao Hwee to carry the class books.
haha.
He down there got shock lor.
Then i return i tell him i fight finish ler.
Kena beaten up.
Damn funny lar.
Then he kept asking me question when the fact is i’m late for his lesson.
And his question is all the 1st hour der.
When i still on my way to school.
After that got listen to him lar.
Despite all the disturbing.
But at least i disturb him good.
He kept asking me question then i will pay attention.
Cause i need to answer his question.

Yeah.
Tomorrow no school
Slacking time again people.

And to Cliques.
When is our next drinking session huh??
Do we need to wait for Grace and Clinton??
Haha.

Oo. so we found a new communication method huh.
By blogging.
Whatever it is.
Me changing??
Yes, i do agree that i have change.
But nothing huge to the extend of me neglecting studies.
Only picked up more flirting and drinking more.
I don’t blame you.
Whatever it is, its my choice.

Yesterday was in a foul mood.
So were you.
Hey, i have stop that stupid stuff just to inform you.
Not drinking.
(You know what i meant, And those who know, don’t you dare comment AGAIN)

Stress.
And that is the reason to Drinks.
Nothing more than that will solve my problem.
And stop saying me.
You are drinking too.
So whats wrong with drinking??
I found nothing wrong.

And Nicholas changes has got nothing to do.
Yes, i do agree with you.
We should cool down first.
Lets talk after we really cool down.
It issn’t the time to talk.

I got too much things to settle.
Especially that group of immature people out there bothering me!!
I want to have a clear line with them.

I’m posting word for word.
What she had posted
I don’t know why am i posting over here.
Maybe to protect her bah.
But whatever the reason, i’m not interested.

My heart bleeds.
I never felt my heart feeling so pain before.
My eyes was watery.
I don’t know why had i trusted you for so long.
We argued yesterday.
But you seems like there issn’t anything wrong with it.

I asked you twice.
And you seems to be avoiding the question.
And i believe that i knew the answer to my question.
I was really very naive.
You made a fool out of me.
It makes me wonder why did i ever liked you.
It hurts, really it hurts.

I was thinking about you all the while through my day.
And i found no reason.
No reason not to believe the facts that lies infront of my very eyes.
You don’t even bother to explain when i was arguing with you.
So let just leave it as it is.
Let me believe whatever i want.

No use finding out the truth when things has turned ugly.
I hate carrying a mask whenever i go out
I just hate it.
But i hate it even more when people think that i’m seriously emotional when i’m not.
I’m emotional but i’m not as emotional as the way you all think i’m.

As times goes by, i’m realising that i’m losing every single close person that i use to have.
Things doesn’t go the way that it use to be.
I just hope that the cliques that i had for the moment won’t be lost.
I’m afraid of losing friends.
Especially close friends.
Cause i had few.
Emofying.